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Dear Little Sis,


Sorry I've been away for so long.  My dogs gorged themselves on 85 caplets of my high-dose vitamin D, and were maaaaybe gonna survive.  Well, they did, although 11 days later, one of them, Harry, is still in the ICU, because his potassium is way low, due to the diuretic they were giving him to flush the vitamin out of his system.  It is so low he actually collapsed while urinating, because his legs couldn't hold him up.  So they're trying to get his levels up and then he'll come home.  My other dog, Lux, got through pancreatitis and is home now, scratching her ear and then licking her paw, as we speak.  Yum.  It was a really difficult time.  I wrung my hands and cried.  But those pups pulled through, and here I am, back in the bloggysphere, as it were.

I am also sorry about your two rejections.  First of all, DreamJob was not so dreamy, from what I hear via a former disgruntled employee.   Who knows.  But it may be a blessing in disguise.  Despite the ostensible Dreaminess of said Job, it might have been a hardship for you to work there.  Sometimes things work out for the best, and it might be helpful for you to think of it that way.  So keep looking for jobs, is what I say.  It seems to me that you sometimes put all of your eggs in one ovary, you know?  You should extend your reach to all corners of Austin, and hope that something clicks.  Sometimes jobs don't work, like the one I just quit because I couldn't stay awake there.  But you can gain skills, pad your CV, and make some mooooolah.

Second of all, perhaps the other rejection was only half-rejection, and half loving honesty, for the sake of preserving whatever connection you and the rejector have.  I don't know.  But isn't it possible that you could also think of this differently?  I mean, yes, the rejector didn't choose you, or at least didn't choose you in the way you wanted to be chosen.  But--and you'll have to let me know--is it possible that you were valued enough to not be dismissed or ignored, but instead truthfully told what your standing was?  In that way, you are loved too.

I have always envied your ability to make and keep friendships, even over long distances.  I am a loner in a lot of ways, and that is one way that we are not alike.  I get overwhelmed by large groups of people, and sometimes even people one-on-one.  My brain just gets...fried.  I feel like I stuck my finger in a socket.  The fact that you have so much love buoying you up, both from you and for you, is, like you say, a real blessing.  I believe that will always be one of your strengths.  You also have some great skills, like cooking and writing and your sense of humor, and good looks + great hair, a maternal kindness toward the kiddies, and an entertaining cat.

So, what should we direct the conversation to now?  Noisy parrots?  Kashi frozen dinners?  Violent lightning?  Empty cat food cans?  Okay, now I'm just naming things I see. But I'd love to kno what you're interested in discussing.  And maybe I'll even be able to keep up.

Off to get my food out of the microwave.

Love,

Big Sis