Paaaaint!

Dear Big Sis,

So I just got out of the shower, my hair is still dripping, and I am sitting on the couch writing a blog post. Because you told me to. So I am.

What should I really be doing right now? Probably getting dressed and moving furniture around my room, so I can finish painting the other two walls. Or applying for jobs. Or working on my finances. Or a million other things I have swept under the rug (so I don't get paint on them, I guess).

What color am I painting my room? This color. Except it's like, 500x brighter in real life. Once I redecorate my room with these, I think it will be much more tolerable. I hope. Otherwise I'll have to paint again, and I miiiight just lose my mind and paint the room neon pink/black stripes.

I'm not sure what to blog about. I'm out of practice; it's been a few weeks. Everything I am thinking about today is deeply personal and not appropriate for a public blog. I'm feeling vulnerable and anxious and unsettled today. I am somewhat convinced I am incapable of having a normal romantic relationship. I feel alone and simultaneously encroached upon. Basically my emotions are all right at the surface, vibrating strongly. It all probably has to do with my vastly fucked up sleep cycle, and having a bit too much fun during the weekend, so hopefully that will fade away as the days pass. But right now I would just like to get outside my head.

One positive thing happening right now is that I've picked up knitting again. I'm making this scarf for a close friend, and it is coming out GREAT. I forgot how much I love to knit, and the pure excitement I get from creating something. Even if I didn't make the pattern myself, or spin the yarn, I am so proud of myself for producing something. The ability to create something with your two hands is intoxicating.

In other good news, K is coming to visit! In two weeks! At the same time my house is having our annual co-op birthday party! Which I am planning! This is a good thing, a very good thing. I love K, and look forward to gallivanting around town with him. There will be red paint applied in an even up-down motion to the many walls of Austin. With primer applied first, of course. And plenty of time to dry before furniture is replaced. Ok, you're right, I'm obsessed.

And with that, I will go to get dressed. Sorry if this post was sub-par, but hopefully I'll be up to writing something a bit more engaging soon. Love you.

-Little Sis